better than me

"Better Than Me"-Hinder

I think you can do much better than me

After all the lies that I made you believe

Guilt kicks in and I start to see

The edge of the bed

Where your nightgown used to be

I told myself I won't miss you

But I remember

What it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face

And the way your innocence tastes

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me

While looking through your old box of notes

I found those pictures I took

That you were looking for

If there's one memory I don't want to lose

That time at the mall

You and me in the dressing room

I told myself I won't miss you

But I remember

What it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face

And the way your innocence tastes

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder

Wish I never would've said it's over

And I can't pretend...

I won't think about you when I'm older

Cause we never really had our closure

This can't be the end

I really miss your hair in my face

And the way your innocence tastes

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me

I really miss your hair in my face

And the way your innocence tastes

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me

its about 1 oclock in the moning and i couldnt sleep and so i was crusing around with out anything to do . when i get home i get this text.

m (not using names lol) : hey i know its late but i was thinking of u when this song came on better than me by hinder. listen to it.

i didnt want to listen to it at first i actually wanted to ignore the fact that he texted me at all ..and i reeeeeaally wanted to ignore the fact that he said he was thinking of me ..

but i ended up listening to it . and i broke down . what does he even expect from me . to be okay that he was thinking of me while he was listening to a song about missing someone and how you wish you were still together .

i dont know why i still let things like this affect me. it shouldnt. but now that were "friends" again its getting harder to ignore the fact that everytime i look at him i still get the same feeling as i used to. or that his smile is still enough to make my stomach feel like it jumped out of my body and send chills up my spine . or how he can make me laugh just by sasying the simplest things. or how we can just sit there and just look at eachother and know what eachother are thinking. all the things i shouldnt be feeling anymore. he makes things so difficult . i feel like im over all of it . but when it comes down to it . those feelings are still there . and its gna take so much more for all of it to go away .

blah back to college apps .

i just had to vent somewhere ..

and with my pathetic life i turn here .

great life .