bye bye summer 09

so this is it .. the end of summer .. this summer has definitely had its ups and downs .
and i can honestly say that over the past two months .. ive definitely mellowed out and and have pretty much matured all together .. ive learned a lot about myself and about others . ive learned its hard to trust others and that when you do you cant trust your whole self with one person .
ive definitely been broken this summer . actually ive been broken and beaten while i was down .
it was one of the hardest things for me to go through . and it still is . slowly but surely it will get easier . there are those days when things get hard and i still feel like breaking down . but i remember talking to my favorite little fortune cookie , my very own therapist , and all the things that she said . i even saved some of our convos on the computer just so i could read them while im down .
Nicole Roque : just know it was because you werent good enough
Nicole Roque : youre more than good enough .

Nicole Roque : its true that sometimes you have to go through the hardest lessons in order for us to feel true happiness when we find it.
Nicole Roque : the greatest revenge is happiness

thanks nicole . you helped a lot on those late lonely nights. well .. late here bc of the time difference ..
things are defiitely hard right now . but i have faith that one guy will come along . and hell be the one to treat me right and be the one to make me feeel beautiful inside and out (:

anyways .. on to better things
JULY 11 2009 - AUGUST 11 2009
best month of my lifee . ive spent all this time with my trio and i wouldnt have had it any other way (: we did so much . from bumming around to shopping karaoke-ing and camping san fran and nicoles birthday. woooow looking back we did a lot . you girls are honestly the best. youre both the most chill most everything girls ever . without you guys .. i think i would have gone crazy this summer . you both kept me together . and you both helped me grow as a person . and i miss you guys like crazy .. thank god for skype (:
haha .

well this is it . summers coming to a close .. its cutting close to midnight .. 1121 to be exact so i better finish this now lol

senior year is upon us now . and i have a feeeling this year is going to be crazy .
positive : finish this year and its peace out chicago hopefully .

soo thanks summer .
even though youve dealt me some bad cards .. ive learned so much and ive grown . and even through all those bad times ive had the best times (: and ill never forget them .
its been good . the best actually .
alright peace out summer .
there will never be another one like it .